suddenly tot of her again...... tot of how it all started..... duno how i summon my courage to go after her... i've never tried b4 but somehow its the white light..... in fact ppl may see me very di siao always go agianst rulez ...daredevil.... steal here steal there but not many noe bout my low self esteem..... when im after her im so scare bout those cuter guys who r after her..... even after we are together...... im still wary bout it.... no one knows we are together..the feelin not gd..im always hurt...... i always think dat its bcos she paisei of me but i noe its not cos she said not... but juz cant help it to think this way.... so many times i wana give up.....felt humuliated when she treat me as a total stranger in sch... when shez wif another guy n dun gif a damn bout me.. but at the end of day when i talk to her over the phone... i felt love again.... but after sometime.... whenever i think back.... i will get very tulan.... maybe dats when i started to treat her harshly...realise it n changed myself.....but i continune to be stubborn n seldom gave in to her...... lead to a disastrous end..... i remember every moment n 90% of them were happy memories for me.... although she may think otherwise but the times we were together were the best til today...for me at least.... i hate the way it all ended but theres nothing i can do....... i tried my best..... im hurt still very hurt..... i tried to recover but i cant..... i still luv her..... but i wun ka jiao her..... luv her n wan her to be happy.... it doesn't matter if im suffering... it doesn't matter..... its my fault..... and my wish is to keep this luv.... so dun ask me to let go or move on..... we once said this and i mean it... luv u til the ocean run dry....